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Post by Dia on Feb 25, 2007 23:23:42 GMT -5
i dont care who the hell reads it. no one will anyways. so its just mostly me talking to myself once again. i guess....its the only way to keep myself company anymore. oh who the fuck cares. im just writing to get shit out of my head.
she sat there at her window sill staring out into the night. she looked below her and watched as cars pass by one by one. sitting there thinking and wishing she could drive soon and have that freedom to drive away from the world. she looked up at the stars and randomly started to talk. ' why'd you have to leave? ' a tear starts to run down her face. ' i can't seem to get my life back together again. its falling apart again. ' she buried her face in her knees cring. the next moment her mom comes barging in.
' anna,i need some----' she got up abrubtly and wiped her face off quickly. ' are you alright honey? ' her mother comes closer to her but she steps back. ' y-yes. im just fine. what is it that you needed. ' her mother tried to get closer to her but she walked to her desk to pick up something. ' what do you need help on mother? ' she asked walking around fixing her room. her mother sighed and walked to the door. ' i need your help making dinner tonight and to do the dishes then set the table. ' her mother paused. ' i wish that you would tell me what's going on with you. your always cooped up here and when i come in your either sitting at that window staring at the night or sitting around on the computer doing who knows what, or just sitting around listening to your ipod. either that or i catch you cring just as i walk in your room. im really worried about you. ' she stood there. looking at her bed. ' nothing is wrong. don't worry. ' she had said those words so many times in her life it's become a real bad habbit of hers. ' i'll be down in a minute. let me fix up my room and i'll help. ' her mother sighed and walked downstairs, closing the door behind her.
Anna turned around and fell on her bed covering her face with her hands. ' it's so damn fucking confusing, you would never understand mom. ' she got up and when to her computer and unpluged her ipod, then wraped the wire around her neck and stuck one ear peice in and the other one to dangle off. she put her favorite music on and when downstaires. as anna walked downstares she saw her sister sitting on the couch watching tv, as usual, cartoons and stuff were on. ' maggie, can you help me with the dishes and setting the table. ' maggie looked at her, ' aw! i don't want to tho! my favorite show is on right now. ' anna looked at the tv then shook her head. ' your so damn lazy! it's the same damn thing you saw just the other night! ' just then her step-father walked in. ' what's all the yelling about? ' anna stopped dead in her tracks. ' n-nothing. never mind. ' and she walked on to help in the kitchen. ' what was that about? ' her mother asked as she walked in. ' nothing. it dosnt matter. ' anna mumbled as she opened the dishwasher to empty it. as she empties the dish washer she could hear her step-father and sister laughing out of the ear without her music and shook her head and contiued on.
as soon as she was done she reloaded the dish washer with the plates that her mother had used to make dinner and then closed it. washing her hands she then turned around. ' what else do you need help with? ' ' you could start making the salad and then set the table. dinner is just about done. ' nodding she grabed a large bowl and went to grab the ingredients for the salad that their family loved the most. she grabbed the selary, tomatos, cheese, and cucumber out of the frige and started to peel the cucumber. when she was done she grabed the cutting board and started to chop them. she loved to chop vegatables. especially cucumbers. she dosnt really know why. but she finds it very fun to do so. she sliced it in half then layed them down on its flat side. taking their new knives they got she, she tipped the kife upwards and slid the knife towards her slicing both cucumber slices. she contiued to do the same steps as she got to the end. she picked up the cutting board and pushed the cut up cucumbers in the bowl. rinsing the board she moved on to the tomatos, her worst enemy. she hated tomatos. she loved eating them more than any other food she liked. but she despised cutting them. she took the tip of the knife and cut out the top then sliced them in half again. she took one half and held it then took the knife placing her forfinger on the back of the knife then her thumb was placed behind the tomato. ' don't do it that way anna. just cut it on the cutting board. dinner will be done really quickly. just make a quick salad. ' anna sighed and did as she was told. she set it down and did the same steps with the cucumber and cut up all the tomatos and put them in the bowl. she wiped her hands and started to pull the selary apart in little pieces for them to eat. as she finnished she sprinkled cheese on it. ' there, done. what kind of dressing do you want? ' her mother didnt quiet answer her and just grabed the bowl. ' it's fine. just grab what ever dressing you want. and could you also grab for me the ranch? ' nodding she grabed the italian and ranch dressing and set them on the table then she went on and grabed the plates and bowls to set on the table. she set them up as usual. her father would be across from her and her mother would be on his right and her sister would be on the left. so as usual she would sit across the table on her own side. hating it, she did it always and let it pass. she grabed the silverwear and went to go wash up for dinner.
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Post by Dia on Feb 25, 2007 23:55:23 GMT -5
when she came back everyone was seated. before she got to her chair maggie asked for a drink. ' can you get me a sprite? ' she stood there staring at her with much rage at her lazyness but then her mother spoke to her. ' while your down there can you hand me one too. ' tighning her jaw she turned to step-father. ' what would you like to drink? ' she spoke through her teeth. he gave her a glance then said nothing. and anna went off to the garage to fetch the drinks. she came back and handed them their drinks and sat down. as she sat down her step-father had just gave her her plate of pasta and she began to eat in silence.
as usual though her father and sister were teasing each other and laughin up a storm and her mother would join in every so often as anna just sat there watching them faking a smile every so often and laughing every so often. then it would be the usual conversations. her father would ask her mother how work was and she would ask the same in return. just on that topic alone would usually take up most of the dinner time and so anna just finnished up her food. getting up, she offered to take everyones plates and walked in the kitchen to put them in the dishwasher. her father walked in and placed the pot of pasta on the stove and her mom walked in rinsing her plate and putting it in the dishwasher. ' can you put the food in a container for me? thank you. ' and she walked off with her father to the living room to sit down and watch tv and unwind. last to get up off the table was her sister. she was the slowest eater next to her lazyness amongst anything. she walked in and placed her plate in the sink. getting mad anna wipped around and grabed her by the arm. ' im not doing it for you! not everything. its not that hard to rinse your dish out and open the dishwasher and put it in! ' maggie stuck out her toung at her and pulled her arm free. ' meanie! ' her sister yelled out. and she rinsed her dish out and put it in the dishwasher then walked off leaving anna alone in the kitchen. she put the food in containers put them in the fridge then rinsed the pots out and put them in the dishwasher. she put the soap in and started it. she turned off the light to the kitchen and walked off upstaires. she new it was thursday and her shows would be on and her sister would repeatedly tell her that they are on. anna got fed up with hearing it so she woulnt mention her shows anymore. and so when her sister would yell out that it was on she would just say that she didnt care. she didnt want to watch it with her and her family in the living room and her father wouln't let her have a tv in her room so she just misses her shows and just reads, goes on the computer, or draws.
when she walked in her room she pulled out her ear piece and put her ipod down again by the computer. she sat down on the chair looking at the screen. ' heh, no one will be on. and even if they were, no one talks to me anymore. oh well. ' she fliped the switch on and it came to life. she signed on to her name and her list came up but as usual no one was on. as she had predicted. she cheacked her e-mails and saw she didnt get one from anyone nor an e-mail from the person she needed the most, her councilor. ' heh. so much for talking about your problems. i swear, people, they are just-just dummies. saying what they will do but never following up on there words. what ever. ' she turned off her computer and when to lay down on her bed. she rested her head on her pillow and grabed her stuffed animal she loved the most. her dog. it was her stuffed animal she got when she was very young. it was still in good shape bt its arms and legs, and yes, its head too, was all sown(sp?) up at least once or twice in its life. it was her special dog. she called it liesa after her old dog she had gotten from her other dad. and the stuffed dog was given to her before her actual dog, but when her mother gave away her dog after her dad left she named her stuffed dog after her real one. she sat there hugging it and burried her face in it. smelling its esence that it had of her life. she was oh so very tired and wanted to sleep so she got up and got out of her clothes and pulled on her PJs and when to her computer to put on music. it was also another habbit of hers. she could never truly sleep peace fully without any kind of music. so she would always have them playing at night. she lowered the volume so her parents cant hear it but enough for her to hear it from her bed. when she got it the way she wanted it she crawled into bed and cuddled with her dog. within a few minutes. she was fast asleep. singing to her favorite song.
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Post by Dia on Feb 26, 2007 22:01:22 GMT -5
Anna woke up with a start. she looked around with cold sweat dripping down her face. she frantically looked around the room and saw no one inside her room. she sat up and put her back to the head board of the table. turning her head she saw her clock and it read ' 2 AM '. she sighed deeply and shook her head. ' URGH! i still have four more hours till school. ' she crawled out of bed and slowly walked to the bathroom to pee and grab a drink of water out of the faucet. she finnished up and washed her hands and slowly crawled to her room again without waking her parents. she got to her room and closed her door quietly and slowly. she walked to her computer chair and sat down looking at the blank monitor. she rested her head on her hands for a few minutes then turned on the monitor. she sighned on just for the hell of it and it slowly came up. she looked at the list and noticed that someone was on. when her mind registered who it was she sighed. ' oh, her. right. well....like it matters. ' she sat there looking at her friends screenname and just shook her head. ' oh well. ' she pulled up and clicked on her name and started to type. ' what are you doing up so late? ' with a soft 'ping' sound her friend replied. ' shhhh! im not really suppose to be on, i didnt finnish my homework and i gotta get it done. ' ' why are you doing it at 2 in the morning tho?' ' i forgot about it untill i went to bed. when i relized i hadnt done it i came down here to do it. ' anna leaned back in her chair, curiouse, she signed onto another sight that a lot of her friends go on to. when she signed on she saw her same friend on. she quickly got off so her friend woulnt noticed and just snorted typing up pretty fastly. ' what ever. so much for true friends....' she sent the IM and the minute she sent it she quickly closed out the screen and signed off. she knew that most of her friends left her out of somethings. anna spun around and looked at her completly empty room. her room was quiet empty really. it didnt have any posters or paintings or pictures. it was just white. and her room was usually clean. she would have a sweater or two on the floor but usually keeps em clean. she had one tall dresser and a desk opposite of it to do her homework on. sighning again( which she seems to be doing alot lately) she turned around and rested her head on the computer desk.
suddenly there was soft raping at the door and it startled anna but she quickly knew who it was. getting up quickly she opened it. it was her favorite living thing in the house she loved most, her cat, sparky. he came walking in and she closed the door behind him. he walked over to her bed an sat upright staring at her. anna smiled and walked over to him and sat down next to him. she petted him softly from the head down to the tail over and over again and sparky began to purr. she loved hearing him purr. it would always put her to sleep if he slept on her head. she looked at the clock and it read 2:30 Am. she looked at him. ' think i should try to go back to bed?' sparky turned its head sideways then meowed softly walking up and nugdeing her in the arm. smiling she petted him again the got up. ' i guess i should. heh. ' she turned off the monitor and crawled back into bed. sparky came walking up next to her as she got confortable and cuddled with her stuffed dog then sparky came and layed down on her pillow right next to her face purring. she could hear the soft purrs and smiling she fell asleep again.
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Post by Dia on Feb 27, 2007 22:13:30 GMT -5
The alarm clock rang loudly and it made the cat jump off the bed making anna jump. she looked around the room and it was dark seeing it was 6 in the morning now. she looked at sparky and the sparky turned it's head sideways. anna sighed and shook her head. she threw the blankets off of her and sat at the egde of her bed rubbing her eyes of the sleep. usually her eyes would burn in the morning. she dosnt know why. but they would. so she has a tendency to rub them even if they dont hurt. she slowly got up and sumbled to the computer to turn up the music alittle bit. as she did her mom came in. ' oh good. your up. well hurry up. its 6:15. ' anna turned her head and looked at the clock then smirked. ' mom, i think YOUR head clock is wrong. its only just 6 in the morning. ' she walked up towards her and patted her on the shoulder. ' why dont you just leave me alone in the morning. im pretty much capable of doing the things i need to do in the morning. ' her mother sighed and just shook her head. ' alright, what ever. but if you miss the bus, dont go asking me for a ride. ' anna nodded and walked off in the bathroom to wash her face then go pee.
she got done in five minutes and walked over to her dresser to pull out some clothes to wear. she really dosnt care what she wears. as long as she is confortable in it and she can move around then she is happy. she noticed her favorite pants were washed and in the drawer so she pulled them out and pulled them on. the pants WERE like goth like because the pants are long and baggy and they also have holes to put chains on. which of course, anna had just one she got from a belt she got. so her usual wearing with her pants were, the pants, a studded belt, and then the chain that hanged off the belt loop hole. smiling she pulled out a black shirt and pulled it on it wasnt a short short shirt. but she likes to wear a shirt that at least showed her belt and chain off. she thought it looked cool. it was now 6:20 and she offically had 15 minutes before her bus came. so she took all her books and packed them in her bag. then she comed her hair quickly and sprayed little perfume on and turned off her music.
she headed downstairs and her mom was just about to go up to say goodbye and that she was leaving for work. but they met half way. her mom said bye and walked to the garage. anna said goodbye and walked towards the door leaving her bookbag infront of it. she walked back upstairs and brushed her teeth quickly and came back down. she dosnt usually eat breakfast that often in the mornings. she would rather sleep in than eat. everyonce in a while she would wake up early to eat but she lliked to sleep more. as soon as she was by the door grabing her coat she relized she forgot her ipod and ran upstairs to get it than ran back down. just in time for the bus to be stoping at her stop. she grabed her bag pulled the door shut and ran to the bus. making it in time this time. (lol) she usually is early and waites outside for the bus for minutes on end. so she just waites inside of the house with the door open and waites for the bus. then when its close she leaves and by the time she walks down her drive way the bus is already stoped. she anna got on the bus and sat in the first seat that was avalible. puting on her ipod and looking out the window for yet another boring stupid day of school. sighing she closed her eyes and fell into a light sleep as her friend came on and sat down. she turned to say morning then a hi then closed her eyes again and fell into that light sleep again.
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Post by Dia on Feb 28, 2007 22:16:32 GMT -5
during the ride to school her friend asked how she was doing. anna would always reply with an ok and ask how she was in return and would get the same answer. it was the same rutine everyday it made anna laugh and smile. anna looked out the window and watched as the buildings and houses passed by then randomly her firend put her head on anna's shoulders. it scared her a bit, but she turned her head and looked at her, all she could do was smile warmingly, then she rested her head on her friends till they got half way to the school.
as soon as they were in school, anna would walk her friend to her classroom then she would depart for the rest of the day. in a way she hated doing it cause she didnt want to wait for seven hour to see her again. it seemed to anna that she was her only friend she could talk to. the friend she really loved and cared for. As anna left she turned around smiled and waved her friend goodbye till the end of the day. tiredly, anna walked up the stairs to her locker. she hated that part of the day the most. all the mean, jerky jocks were always by her locker and would always stand infront of it and would never let her through untill she had to embarasse herself at least once just to get to it. then they would always stand over her watching her and laughing at her. she got used to it for so long she just ignored there comments, but today was different, today they just woulnt leave her alone.
as soon as anna opened her lock she put her coat in it and knelt down, then one of the boys that was nearest to her slamed her locker shut. scared, she jumped back a bit and fell backwords in the process. all the guys around her laughed loudly it was causing a scene. getting mad, anna was fed up with it. she got up brushed off herself and stood up to the guy who closed her locker. ' you wanna do that again you asshole? ' anna had fire in her eyes. she wasnt having a good morning to start off with. and it was only 7 in the morning. the guy laughed and sarcasticly he pat her on the head, also teasing her in the process. ' oh, im so sorry. -he laughed some more. making more of the guys laugh- i didnt mean to scare you. ' she got red in the face and it wasnt becuase it was flattery. it was far from it. she was in rage. she hatted being teased like this, she hated making attention to herself. she aboulutly hated it. the next moment. * BAM!* you could hear a crunching noise. anna stood there her fist tight and across the guys face. all the guys stood still around him. the guy that got socked stood there in shock bleeding from the lip. looking at him in the eyes she said, ' im NOT an innocent girl who will just go cring to your knees beging to stop messing with me. i am NOT like that. i think, you've got me mistaken for someone else. ' the guy got so inraged because he got hit by a girl he clentched his jaw and fist and took a swing anna but she moved out of the way thus hitting he best pal in the face dead on. making him break his nose. the guy fell to his knees holding his nose. the other guys around got mad and stood around her holding her down. the guy that got hit stood infront of her holding her sholder with one hand and having his fist up infront of her face. ' this is your price for what you've done here. ' and the next moment all she saw was light. he had hit her dead on in the face. she coulnt move, they just held her for a while while the guy kept hitting her. when he was done the guys let her go and she just fell down with a *thump* the school system wasnt that bad really, but the school didnt seem to do anything about any fights that go on in the hallways. neither do the students at the school. so even tho they witnessed her getting hit they just walked by like nothing happened.
she got up slowly but was hurting really badly. she had it comming. she held so much anger this was her only way of getting rid of it. but in return, she had to get something back for it. and this was it. she leaned back against her locker and looked at the ground as there was a little pool of blood under her from her face. the next moment seemed like a blurr to her. somone had noticed her sitting there and she looked up and then when into shock. usually, like i said, most people ignored all fights and leaves the person alone. but the person who was kneeling infront of her was her friend that had been avoiding her and not talk to her. anna didnt smile when saw her infact, she was kinda angry. she wanted to hit HER instead. out of all people. she wanted to hit her. she was friends with her becuase she was mostly related to her. when she first met her she felt relived that she met someone she could talk to. but as years went by her friend started to move away. anna coulnt talk to her anymore because either her friend woulnt talk back or she would just walk off without a word, which i guess is the same thing, but different if your just standing around. seeing her friend over her smiling at her and holding out her hand made her so mad. she wobbled up on her own leaning on the locker and smacked her friends hand away. ' of all the times, you decide to come to my rescue now?' she smiled back and walked up closer. ' i've always been here. i'll never betray you. i'll never stop being friends with you. ' anna got madder she got red in the face again, tho it was hard to see seeing as she was covered in blood. then she heard herself yelling. ' YOUR LIEING!I CANT TAKE YOUR LIES ANYMORE! ' and whith out knowing she lost her footing while she was tring to push her away but just ended up falling instead, but, like her friend promised. she was still there. and she caught anna as she started to cry. anna just coulnt take her life anymore. she was beging to become the silent vilolent type of person. she would hate people secretly and when the time was right she would end up hitting somone. but would get beat up in return. she cried there in that hall way tho becuase for the first time in a few years she had pushed someone and she didnt get hit back. the next moment she count remember anything. she had become uncontious.
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Post by Dia on Mar 1, 2007 11:58:23 GMT -5
she woke up with a start and found herself in the clinic's office. she had her friend standing next to her and her parents were there talking to the nurse. she sat up and rubbed her head, it ached so much. her friend looked at her. ' you all right? ' anna looked at her in disgust and just looked away. ' yea, but like it matters to you. this has happened to me before. its nothing new. ' then her parents walked up to her angry, yet, worried. her step-father spoke first. ' WHAT IN THE GODS NAME WERE YOU THINKING! ' and he hugged her. her mother had tears in her eyes but she didnt come to hug her. her father looked at her. ' so tell me! what the hell were you thinking and what the hell happened?' anna looked at them stright in the eye then just looked away. ' nothing. just some guys were infront of my locker and woulnt move. ' she noticed her friend nodding confirming that is what happened and it made anna suspiscious a little but just sat there waiting for him to say something else. ' so, you decided to hit him? oh for gods sakes. what the hell were you even thinking?? ' anna got fed up with the same question being asked over and over again. she stood up quickly looked at him in the face and just ran out of the room. her friend quickly explained what she saw and ran after her. anna didnt want anyone to follow her so she ran quickly out of the school and down the street. she knew one place where her friend didnt know she would go, she she ran for it. but she knew her bad luck. her firend could run a lot faster than she can so by the time she got half way her friend was running next to her. she grabed her shoulder and forced her to stop running. anna stood there breathing heavly as well as her friend. she was looking down as her friend was looking stright at her. ' so what's up? your parents are really worried. why did you run off? ' anna started to get that pain in her throat when she was about to cry but she forced it back. ' nothing, you dont know anything. so why get involved?' ' becuase, your not acting yourself. i know your not the vilolent type. so tell me what's wrong. ' ' no! you don't care at all! ' ' you've got to stop saying that. i do care. i've been watching you for a while. the road your going is killing you inside and out. this is not the way you should be living. ' anna coulnt hold it back much more but she tried as hard as she could to force them in. her friend noticed and shook her head in dissapointment yet in a sorryful manner. ' i am here wether or not you believe me. all of your friends are. we will always be here to help you. you-you JUST gotta ask for it. ' she coulnt hold them anymore, she started to cry. embarassed she started to run away again but harder and faster. her friend wouln't give up on her so she ran after her again. but this time with little much more difficulty. but she caught up to her and wrapped her arms around anna holding her tightly so that she woulnt run away but also to give her the securtiy that she was here for her. anna stoped dead in her tracks and tried to squirm her way free but her friend wasnt giving up. she wasnt letting go of her grip. anna hated to be the weak one. if she was in a fight she would always end up getting hurt. if she was in a conversation that wanted to make her cry, she would always run away. when she felt insecure she would run faster and harder thus making people harder to catch up to her. when she was held by someone she didnt trust she would fight as hard as she could to get away but she would never win. anna stoped squirming and just fell to her knees, her firend catching her and sitting down holding her. ' i know you dont trust me. i know you don't trust anyone. you feel like your weak and that's the reason you get into fights. you want to prove that you ARE strong. but anna, you are strong. your just showing it differently. you'r stronger than me by will than you are physically. someone always catches up to you when you want to run. someone's always stronger and can hold you down when your caught. but no one's as strong as you when it comes to holding it all in someitmes. and weighing all that stress and frustration you have. you have to get rid of it sometimes but your not doing it healthy. your hurting others. ' she started to hold tighter because she felt anna starting to squirm some more and she felt her rage comming on. ' im not gonna give up this time on you anna. i wont. you need some help i WILL be here. i AM here. ' she started to whisper. ' it's ok to be weak. its---ok to cry anna. ' and without any control she started to cry. she started to try and shake herself free but her friend wasnt gonna let go. she held tighter and tighter. she knew this was the only way she could gain her trust back in anna. so she held her tightly and rested her head on her back untill she was relaxed. anna felt her head and got scared again like she did with her other firend on the bus and she started to squirm some more, her friend noticed it but she didnt let up. ' its also ok to be scared anna. it really is. ' then she stoped moving all together and all you could hear was her cring. her friend smiled and let loose a little but she still held her. ' are you ok anna? ' after a while she finnaly spoke. ' y-yes. ' she turned around and hugged her friend tightly. ' i-im sorry ' her tears were flowing freely now and her friend knew that she had set her down her right path she was on before. she started to get up and help anna up once they were standing her friend smiled at her and hugged her again. ' lets get back to school. your parents really are worried. ' anna shivered. ' i dont know ' confused, her friend just said. ' i'll be there with you. its ok. ' and they started to walk back to school.
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Post by Dia on Mar 1, 2007 23:02:44 GMT -5
they walked back together slowly, anna didnt want to go back to her parents. they would eventually yell at her and it would always, as usual, make her stay within herself and just stay locked up. it was like a cage for her. not like other cages tho. its like, her family let her do all this stuff they give her so many things and treat her great, but the way they act. its as if she's in a cage. she's locked up inside. she has no way out. even when she knows she does....she not so sure how to get out. her friend looked at her but anna just contuied to look at the ground. ' so, what's eating you? ' anna looked at her then looked back down. not really saying anything. ' hey,' she stoped and made anna stop. ' i don't know how many times i gotta tell you....' just those exact words made her mad and wanted to hit her, but this time...she had no self control. and instantly. anna smacked her. and a tear trickled down. shocked, her friend stood there.
' what do you know? you know nothing of whats going on. you acting all nice, that's just playing with me. that's your idea of a sick joke or something, i dont know. what ever it is. im getting tired of it. i'm getting tired of hearing that people are there for other people, but those are just damn words. no one acts upon them. ' she started to cry again. ' i don't know what's with you or me. i don't know why i relate to you so much. infact, now, i just hate thinking about it. it so stupid and ridiculus i just hate it with a firey passion. you just don't know everything, alright? you just gotta put yourself in the other persons shoes with out assuming you know everything. but then again, you DONT know whats going on, you woulnt know. everyone's been avoiding me keeping there distance, just.....shunning me away. you wanna know what it does to a person inside. it rips them to shreds. it feels like you've messed up so badly you cant do anything....all you think about is just to get rid of yourself to make others happy. but its always a sacrafice, someone eventually gets hurt if one takes a certian action. ' anna abruply stopped. what she was saying, started to make sense. her friend looked at her and smiled. ' exactly anna. exactly. i AM the same way. tho im the one shunning people and keeping my distance. im the one messing up. but im doing what it takes to replace what i've done. im sacraficing myself wether it hurts people or myself. i willing to repay my mistakes. what i've done to you, its something i want to fix. i want to repay what i've done. ' she sighed. ' but i also want to help you. cause what you've become, i feel, is somewhat my doing. ' anna shook her head. ' no, no its not. ' she paused. ' well....some of it maybe. but mostly no. ' its just, i hate it....i can never tell people how i feel or really think. im-im just locked up or, for better terms, traped in myself. i dont know how to get out. i got myself in something into something and i cant get out. ' her friend smiled again. ' let me help you. ' she grabed anna's shoulders. ' do what you need, hit me, punch me, push me. show me the you that you are. i will take the blows. im gonna be here for you. i wont give up. ' she smiled and hugged her. ' i wont give in. ' anna stood still. it was one of her most famouse lines....she stole them from her. she used to always say that. she always knew that she wont give up. she always knew she wasnt gonna give in. she started to cry again becuase she felt so stupid the way she's been acting, she felt so stupid that she let herself give in. she felt so stupid she gave up. her friend pulled her a way and looked at her in the eyes. anna rubbing the tears away made her friend smile and laugh. ' lets just get you on the right track. lets get the anna i know back to herself. the anna who wont and will not give up. the person that i became friends with. ' she tapped her head and they walked on.
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Post by Dia on Mar 2, 2007 22:10:12 GMT -5
they finnaly had the school insight and anna shivered. she knew her step father was not gonna be happy with her one bit. she knew what her punishment would be for what she's done today. pulling them from work, then making them wait so long for her to get back. her friend wraped her shoulder around anna. ' lets get going then. ' and they walked into the building. anna pulled her firends should off of her and walked in first. her father and mother were sitting down talking to each other. when they saw her her step father stood up so quickly it made anna jump. but she stood her ground. thinking to herself, ' if im strong as my friend tells me....then i WILL stand my ground. ' she stood there and her father took a firm grip on her that it made a sharp pain run down her body. ' WHERE THE HELL, WHAT THE HELL.......WHAT IN GODS NAME IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!?!?!? ' he yelled at her face. as she predicted she wasnt going unpunished and he raised his hand and smacked her. the force of the smack made her head turn and left a mark across her face. her friend stood there shocked as she witnessed it. she walked toward anna but she stuck out her hand and motioned her to stay. her father wasnt please and he had to take one more hit for her mother and got smack the other way once again making her face turn and red. her friend twitched as she watched. but anna looked right at him with her face still turned. it almost look as if she were pure evil the way she looked at him. ' you done now? is that my punishment for what i've done? ' getting mad at her smart allick reply he steped back and raised his hand again. anna smiled and she stood there and let him hit her again. this time her firend and mother twitched and didnt want to watch her getting hit but anna stood there smiling at him. ' better now? ' she asked. her father got red in the face. ' STOP WITH THE DAMN SMART REMARKS!!! YOUR JUST A DAMN KID! WHY ARNT YOU AFRAID OF ME HITTING YOU. WHY ARNT YOU MOVING!?!?!' she walked up to him. ' i know my place. its here, but if it means to walk back and take my punishment for all that i have done then i will contuie to walk back to the way i was. even if it means getting hit. ' she walked up further. ' i know im not strong physically. i got that down. but i realy do relize now thta i am far stronger than anyone in will power. i know i dont give up. i dont give in. ' she stoped and her step father was looking down at her. he was puzzled and just stood there listening. ' i was always afraid of outcomes of what would happen if i ever opened up to people. i used to be afraid of getting hit or hurt alot. so....i guess to get rid of my fear....i started getting into fights. but it was wrong. it was only to get rid of my anger. after a while i relized it was getting me know where but trouble. i would always just hide...making it worse for me. so i stoped communicating all together with people after a while. ' she looked back at her friend. then back at her father. ' i shunned people away but i was being shunned more from others. i didnt know why....so it made me trapped even further. after a while it just felt like i wasnt comming back at all...never. but i was wrong. ' she walked back towards her friend and put her shoulder around her. ' there are some people that know they made a mistake...they are willing to fix it. no matter what. they do eventually come back. so maybe....its time that i return to myself too. '
her father sat down and her mother just kept staring at her. it felt to anna that non of them were even understanding what she was saying. then her friend steped in. she knew anna felt as if they wernt getting it. ' anna is having lots of trouble becuase she dosnt know exactly what to do. becuase of our own problems we've all been truly ignoring her whether or not you say you are. in reality we just dont relize what goes on with people around us when we are concerned with ourselves. anna took a turn for the worse. she felt pushed away and traped so she took a different road and when for the trouble route to make herself feel as if she were alive. she knew the pain she feels was real...but now all she wanted to do was make them numb. she didnt want to feel them anymore. the only way she knew how was to get into physical fights to cover up the internal pain with outside pain. kind of why she would never win a fight. she just wants to get rid of pain. ' she walked towards anna and hugged her. ' im gonna ease that pain. she did for me...and now its my turn. sorry if it disproves you of anyway shape or form...or if it angers you...but im gonna help her whether you do or not. ' and she led anna alone and stood right out the hallway wall waiting.
( to be contiued with this little section later. ......im dead tired....idk what im typing. lol. laters)
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Post by Dia on Mar 3, 2007 21:53:53 GMT -5
anna stood waiting at the door way for her parents to say something. she stood watching, her step-father watching her but her mother avoiding eye contact with her. anna got upset with that. her mom was the thing, the PERSON, who made her mad the most. she always had told her that she wanted to help anna. she would always say that she would listen. and the time she needed the most today, and all she did was watch as she got hit. it made anna disgusted. as mintues passed by her step-father finnaly got up and walked to her. she flinched inside but stood her ground. stretched her feet outward a bit and stood her ground. her father walked on looking at her. he sighed and just walked out the door. ' lets go hun, she dosnt need us. lets leave her be. lets see where she'll go on her own. ' he laughed ' lets see where she can go before she comes crawling to us. ' her mother sat there looking at the ground, not even looking at anna. she got up and left out the door, once again, not looking at her at all, then they left. anna fell to her knees. she had no idea what to do now. she had no idea what she did. ' is THIS the road i was on......no matter what i do. IM ALWAYS ALONE!!!!! ' she screamed in her head. her friend seemed to hear it, dont know how, anna had no idea, but she seemed to know and knelt infront of her. ' you alright? ' anna shook her head. ' no, no matter what road i take....it's always going to be the lonely road. im-----never good enough....' her friend shook her head this time. ' no, your not. they just dont understand at the moment. give them time. im sure they will noticed what they did wrong. and just like me, they will come back and try to fix what they had broken. ' anna shook her head again. ' no, i dont think so. he normaly dosnt hit me. he's afraid to. he dosnt want to hurt me. i dont know why he did now. i dont understand anything right now. ' she grabed her head. ' i dont know what to do! ' her friend hugged her. ' we'll help you. ' she smiled. ' your not alone. ' without them noticing the day had passed and school was already over. anna got upset even more that she made her friend miss school and all her classes. she was REALLY upset with it but her firend just smiled and said it was ok. she'll make it up the next day. everyone went to there lockers and grabbed all there stuff for home. anna went to her locker and her friend was waiting for her. ' just go to your locker. dont miss your bus. ' she hugged her and her friend left. anna's locker was all the way upstairs, with how much time she was using up she was never gonna make it downstairs in time. and if her friend waited her friend REALLY was gonna miss her bus. she she got her stuff and put on her coat and walked on downstairs to the busses. just as she got out of the door the busses were moving. ' oh, great. just perfect. ' she saw her bus pass by her and her other friend saw her and waved furiously. anna nodded and just waved back. not knowing what else to do. she waited for the busses to have completly leave till she had to walk home. so she sat at the bench and waited. then, she noticed someone walking to her. ' so, you missed it too? ' it was her friend. ' im just as slow. ' she smiled. ' so, you wanna walk together home? ' anna and her friend dont live too far from each other. but from the school to their houses too lots of time. at least an hour and a half. anna contiued to look at the ground. ' yea, sure. ' she got up and they started to walk home. it took them at least 20 minutes to talk to each other, anna spoke first. ' wonder if im at least alowed to go home? ' her friend looked at her puzzled. ' why would they not? ' ' because, he just told me that i was basically on my own. ' ' true, but your still there child. he never said he disowned you or anything like that. he never truly kicked you out. ' anna sighed. ' well, if it makes you feel any better, just come to my house then. or go to our other friends house down little further. ' anna didnt know how to respond to that. all she could do was nodd. her friend nodded in return and they walked on in silence for the rest of the way home. they reached anna's home first and her friend insisted on waiting for her incase they did kick her out. when she reached her door she noticed her bags. she opened them and saw all her stuff in them. she had been disowned. she dropped her bookbag and ran inside and up to her room. it was completly empty. every draw was open and cleaned out. her computer was shut off and cleaned off. then her mother walked in the door. ' your on your own. find your own place to live. we cant and will not help you anymore. ' anna turned around slowly. ' you-you said you were here for me! ' she said cring. ' you said you wanted to know what was wrong with me! why are you doing this?? i thought you were gonna help me???!!! i thought you were here for me!!!!!' her mom looked away. ' im sorry, it was your fathers decision. he coulnt take you anymore. ' ' WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS TAKING HIS SIDE!?!?!?! CANT' YOU SUPPORT ME TOO! ARNT YOU HERE FOR ME TOO!!! ?!!!!' her mother turned around. ' im so sorry anna. if you need anything. anything at all...call my cell. ' disgusted she snorted and screamed more. ' YEA RIGHT!?!?! YOUR JUST LEING TO ME! YOU DONT CARE AT ALL!!! YOUR LIER!!!' and anna ran out the door and burst out the front door making her firend scared a bit. she had a feeling it wasnt good. anna stood there. tears in here eyes looking at the sky. ' WHY GRANDPA! WHY'D SHE DO THIS TO ME!!!!! ' and she fell down crying in her hands. her friend came up runnning but anna stoped her cold. ' dont-dont touch me. ' she looked at her in the eye. ' i need a place to stay. is that ok?' her firend nodded and anna got up and grabed all her things. her friend tried to help her but anna forced her to leave her to grab it. and she did. she walked with all her stuff to her friends house.
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Post by Dia on Mar 4, 2007 22:02:44 GMT -5
they got to her firends house and her firend walked in first. ' well, common. ' she smiled. but anna didnt. she didnt feel like smiling. ' no, go and ask if its ok first. i wont step in untill then. ' her friend sighed. ' ok. ' and she walked in. anna set down all her stuff and sat down on one of them. she rested her head on her arms and watched all the kids playing and watched the cars passing by. nothing seems to be comprehending to her at the moment. nothing was alive for the brifest moment untill her friend came out. her face was blank yet sad, ' my family- wont let me. we dont have enough room for one more. ' she bowed and then walked up to hug her tightly. anna showed no emotion at the moment. she didnt know where to go. she had no granparents, no relitives close to her used to be home. her friend hugged tighter then anna relized she had another friend just further down the street. she pulled her friend away. ' its ok. thanks for trying tho. ' ' where you going----oh wait. your going to her house down the street arnt you? ' anna nodded. ' yea. lets see if i can. if not....then i don't know. ' her friend nodded and sighed. ' good luck. and im so sorry. ' anna nodded and grabed all her things. she turned around and started to walk off waving behind her. ' thanks anyways. ' she stopped walking. ' if i dont see you again, that is, if i dont find a home, thank you anyways for your help. ' anna looked down and smiled alittle then contiued to walk onward. her friend was so upset that she coulnt help her then, but little does she know, she helped her a great deal. anna walked at least another 20 minutes before she got on the side street of her other friends house. ' god, what a work out im getting. ' least she still had her sense of humor right? she laughed abit and finnaly got to her other friends house. ' finnally ' she thought to herself. she go to the stares and set down her stuff then nocked at the door. it was already at least late evening when she got there and all the sidewalk lamps were on. her friends father opened the door and looked down. ' who're you? ' anna looked up. ' anna. lunna's friend?' her father turned on the door light then laughed. ' OOHHHHhhh...its you. ' he called for lunna and she could hear her comming down the staires. ' what's up dad?' ' your friends here. ' he turned to anna. ' but, why ARE you here so late. ' he looked down and saw lots of bags. ' going on a trip?' he said laughing but anna wasnt laughing and lunna knew something was wrong. ' uh, dad, can you give us a minute. ' he nodded and she stepped outside. ' what's up anna? what's with all the bags?' anna sat down on one of the steps. ' don't get too upset, but, i really need your help. ' she took a frim grip on her hands. ' i've been kick out of my home......' there was a long silence. all you could hear were the crickets. ' basically i've been disowned and i need a place to stay. ' once agian lunna didnt say anything. ' i didnt something awful at school, which is why i missed the bus, and my parents were involved and, at school, they just told me that i was to do everything on my own now. i've got no where to go. ' her hands started to shake. she felt so nervise cause her friend wasnt saying anything and she really had no other choices for the night. she knew another friend she could try.....but her other friend was so busy, and her mother would probably not allow it. lunna was her only choice at the moment. it took about five minutes of slience then all of a sudden she felt lunna's arms around her and almost practically jump her. she felt her shaking then it took anna a while to relized that she had been crying, but silently. ' oh my god! im so sorry anna. that's just HORRIBLE! ' lunna didnt let go. she just held on tighter and tighter. ' lunna, i need an answer. if you cant provide me with one i've got to find somewhere to go for the night. ' ' did you try sam down the street before me? ' anna nodded. then abrubtly lunna jumped up. ' well then. i shall ask my parents. wanna come in? ' anna shook her head. ' no, i dont want to presure them. let them give your answer with just you alone. ' lunna nodded. ' okies. just wait here then. ' ' where else am i gonna go. ' she said without trying to sound funny. lunna nodded again and went inside. it was a slilent night. all you could hear were the crickets and since lunna lived off of the main street not many cars go by. she could hear faint mumbles of her parents talking and lunna talking back. from the sound of her parents they sounded ok with it. then all of a sudden the door behind anna swung open and hit anna making her fall off the steps. lunna freaked out and jumped down to help her. ' OH MY GOD! IM SO SORRY! ' she tryied not to smile but a faint one crawled up her face. ' its ok. so, whats the answer. ' lunna hugged her and smiled. ' they said you can stay as long as you need to. there would be no problem what so ever. ' anna sighed in relife. she knew it was ok with her parents. anna was really good with her parents, and her parents seem to like her back. anna put in a fake smiled as best she could and got up. ' thank you, thank you so much. ' and she hugged lunna. ' you have no idea what this means to me. ' lunna hugged back. ' lets get your things inside. ' as soon as lunna picked up a bag she spoke out. ' its ok. i got it. ' and she grabed them out of lunnas hands and grabed all of her things. her parents were watching from the door and opened it as soon as they got up the stairs. ' well, welcome to out humble home. ' her father had said. lunna's father was the funny one. he would always crack a joke to break the silence or tensity of a room. ' thank you. ' anna said bowing. ' thank you so much. ' ' there's no need to do that dear. ' lunnas mom said. ' its perfectly ok. ' lunna looked at anna and smiled. it made anna want to cry again but she forced them back. everyone was watching her and they seem to know. ' so, uh....where do i put my stuff down at? ' lunna jumped in. ' that'd be my room.....' ' what? dont you have an extra room for now? ' lunna looked puzzled. ' is something wrong. ' ' yes, you have one bed, its very wrong lunna. ' lunna just laughed. ' but its a king size. anna shook her head. ' yes, i know. but....if you dont mind. just for tonight, i would like a room to myself. if you dont have one, i'll just sleep on the couch. i just----need to be alone for the night. ' her parents looked at lunna and refrianed her from speaking and she understood. ' there is a room next to lunna's you could have. its an empty room. quite plain and white. ' her father spoke out. anna nodded. ' thank you. ' she bowed again. ' please, non of that. its perfectly ok. if your gonna live here, then you must not do that. for now, your family. ' once again, standing in that spot and her parents looking at her with warm eyes as well as lunna made her want to cry. she looked down and shook her head. ' ok. thank you. ' and she grabed her stuff and walked upstaires. lunna started to follow but her mother stoped her. ' let her be. she's----having difficulty at the moment. let her be by herself for a while. ' lunna looked at her then her mother. ' ok. ' ' why dont you start dinner. i suppose anna might be starving. ' lunna nodded. ' okies. what shall i cook for this evening? ' ' i dont know. what does anna like? ' ' hmm....i think it was pasta. ' ' then pasta it is ' she heard her father say. lunna smiled and nodded( she likes to nodd alot. hope she wont lose her head in the process of this story. XD) and she set off in the kitchen and put on the water for boiling. mean while anna walked upstairs and got to the empty room. she fliped the switch and it had blinded her for a moment but regained sight. ' wow, it is plain and white. heh, but so was my other room i had. ' but her smiled fadded. she set down her stuff and noticed a window. she smiled a little and walked to it. opening it a little bit so she could have some breeze air out the room. she sat at the window sill and watched the night again. ' now what am i gonna do. im bymyself, but i have no idea what do to but live in someone elses home. which, i think, is just rude. ' she looked up at the sky. ' quiet night tonight. ' she thought. she stood there looking at one perticular star then started to cry again. ' GOD DAMNIT! WHY AM I SO GOD DAMN ALONE ALL THE TIME. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME YOU GUYS!! she screamed into her head. she heard a soft nock at the door and it scared her. she wiped away all the tears the best she could before the door was opened a little. lunna's mother poped her head in the crack. ' you ok dear? i hope your ok with pasta tonight for dinner? ' anna shook her head. ' im sorry, but, im not so hungry. ' her mother walked in. ' but you have to be. im sure you havnt had anything since school. ' anna laughed. ' no, actually i havnt sinces last night. ' her mother was shocked. ' good god woman. then you must be even more starving!' anna shook her head. ' no, im sorry. actually im not. ' she walked in further. ' are you sure your gonna be ok? ' anna froze. why was lunna's mom more concered and sounding more caring than her own mother? why is she trying and sounding much more caring? she didnt know why. before anna knew it lunnas mom was next to her. she touched her shoulder and it scared anna making her jump from her spot. she scared both her and lunnas mom. ' what! what's wrong? ' anna painted abit. ' n-nothing. sorry. i-i was just......scared a bit. ' her mother turned her head. ' why though? why are you so scared? ' she walked further to her. she didnt like it so she stepped back one step. the mother noticed and steped closer. making anna step back one again. anna couln't help herself. she was just so insecure she just did it subcontiously. the mother noticed and just kept walking to her till finnaly she stopped. ' what's really wrong anna? why are you so afraid of me? ' anna shut her eyes and looked away. ' its-its not you. im-im just......not....sure. ' it was her mistake that she closed her eyes cause then the mother came up to her and grabed her shoulders lightly, once again making anna jump in fright and tried to break free. she was sucess ful and walked to the other side of lunna's mother. ' im-im so sorry. its-its just....i dont know. i dont mind getting hugs. i'll hug anyone. im- i guess its just when im at my insecure state...i just get so afraid, that i just dont know what to do but run. i get just so terrified. its-its not you. ' she shut her eyes again but this time lunnas mom didnt walk any further to her. instead she walked to her bed and sat down. ' you wanna tell me what's bothering you then? ' she opened one eye and stood there. ' why the hell are you so concerend!!!! why are you doing this!!!? ' lunna screamed in her head. it took anna about three minutes before she could speak. ' i- i just dont feel like talking now. im sorry. ' the mom sat there watching. ' ok, i dont want to presure you. ' she got up and walked up to anna but flintched. ' its ok. i wont touch you. if you want to eat i'll put a container of left overs in the fridge. if you get hungry over night feel free to grab some food. ' she smiled in reasurence ' everything will be ok now. we will help you. if you ever want to talk you can always talk to lunna or i. or anyone in this house. if your gonna live here, try not to be so afraid. we wont hurt you. i promise. ' and her mother walked off taping her on the shoulder she closed the door behind her. lunna being by the door had watched it and was listening. ' she'll be fine lunna, just, leave her be for a while. she might not eat tonight. but, i think one night of good rest shall do her some good. ' her mother smiled and lunna just looked at the door not smiling but nodding. ' alright,......' and she walked back downstaires to eat. anna walked to her new bed and laied down. ' what a shitty day i'v had ' she said to herself.
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Post by Dia on Mar 4, 2007 22:50:18 GMT -5
anna had been laying there for quite a while, had to have been at least and hour or so before she heard another soft knock at the door. anna got up and opened it. ' yes? ' lunna was looking down at the floor then looked up. ' um......i hope your ok. ' anna smiled and nodded. ' i'll be fine. ' ' you sure? i mean.....if not, ' she held up a bear. ' this guy always helps me get to sleep. it might help you. ' lunna smiled and handed it to anna. she smiled again and took it. ' well, thank you so much. ' ' your welcome. ' they stood there looking at each other for a while. ' so, ' lunna spoke. ' if you need anything i'm right next door. anything at all you can always ask. ' anna nodded. ' okay. ' ' well, good night anna. ' and lunna hugged her. ' im glad we can help you. and im also glad you came to us. ' lunna smiled and anna hugged her back. ' thank you for your help, gerosity, the bear, and your home. thank you so much. ' they both smiled then lunna turned to her room and closed the door. anna closed her door as well and got dressed in her PJs the crawled into bed for the night.
(gettin late. to be contiued later on of this section. )
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Post by Dia on Mar 6, 2007 22:24:40 GMT -5
anna woke up randomly in the middle of the night, she noticed that it was too quiet for her and couldnt stand it. so she got up and dug in her bag for her ipod. it was the ONLY way she could sleep. she found it at the bottom and then crawled back into bed putting the music on. she sunk lower in her bed and cuddled with the bear lunna gave her and her stuffed dog. within minutes anna was back asleep, finnaly, after a long day, with a smile on her face.
the next morining was a blurr. she knew she had school to go to but she didnt want to get up. finally she had to get up becuase she heard knocking at her door. she crawled out and opened it. lunna was up and ready and was already in her clothes and ready for school. anna rubbed her eyes to wake up and lunna laughed at her. ' common sleepy head. time for school. we can't miss the bus. ' anna nodded and groaned. she walked to the bathroom and freshened up, washing her face and brushing her teeth. she got back in her room and got dressed and grabed her bag pack and headed downstairs. lunnna was already waiting at the door for anna to leave with her. but anna just waved her hand. ' go on, i'll get there. do what you normaly do without me. ' lunna turned her head sideways but shurged. ' alright. ' and she was out the door. anna walked in the kitchen for a moment to say good morning and grabed her coat then headed out the door. ' WAIT! you didnt have breakfast anna. ' ' naw, i usually dont eat breakfast. thank you tho. i gotta catch the bus. ' and anna ran out of the house. she liked to run sometimes in the cold. it would always clear her head when it hurt or when she had too much on her mind. so she ran untill she saw lunna and she stopped running and just walked the rest of the way with her to their bus stop.
(real short one. gotta sleep. XD only slept for four hours yesterday. lol. night. to be contiued....)
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Post by Dia on Mar 7, 2007 20:30:36 GMT -5
anna and lunna made it to the bus stop and waited for the bus to come. anna looked down the street both ways then decided to look at her watch. she droped her jaw. ' lunna....its only 6:15. we've still got at least 20 minutes. ' lunna laughed. ' yea, i know. but i like to be early. i dont want to miss the bus. ' anna sighed and sat down....but it was more like falling down on her butt. lunna lauged again and it made anna get another headach. ' why are you so damn cheery in the morning. its 6:15 damnit. ' and she grabed her head. lunna set down her stuff and sat down next to her. ' i dont know. i just am. sorry. something wrong?' anna laughed this time. ' yes, its 6:15, i havnt eaten anything so far, it would be a whole day i havnt eatten. plus this morning and no lunch. and then im just tired and not all that awake yet. ' anna glanced away from lunna. she didnt want to tell her bout her problems by her locker every morning. lunna wasnt letting it go tho. ' something else is bothering you tho. ' anna looked at her. ' how do you know? ' ' cause, you looked away from me. normally you dont unless its something you dont want to talk about. ' lunna caught her. it was no way to run. she coulnt think of one. so she told her.
' oh my god, that's horrible. how long has it been going on? ' anna looked down. ' all year.' lunna didnt speak. she was mad. kinda like the anger little 5 year olds get. but they dont scream. they just show a little funny face of anger. it made anna want to laugh. but she really didnt feel like it at the moment. ' WELL then. im just gonna have to come up with you then. ' this time anna coulnt help it. she laughed. ' what? what so funny? ' ' oh, nothing. ' lunna nodded. ' ok. so. this morning shall be our win of the battle. ' she turned to anna and smiled. anna gave a weak smile back and lunna hugged her. just when they let go of each other the bus came down the street. they both got up and grabed there stuff and got on the bus. anna getting on first because she liked the window in the mornings while lunna had the window in the afternoon after school. it was usually a common deal they had without words. anna would usually get on first in the morning in front of her house and in the afternoon lunna would get to the bus before anna because her locker would be downstairs and not upstairs, so she had a shorter distance. it was their normal rutine(sp?). they both sat down and lunna got situated with her stuff. it was unusal of anna tho becuase anna was usually the awake one in the morning and lunna was the tired one. lunna would always lay her head on anna and she would lay her ontop of lunnas head, but today was different. anna was just so tired she moved a bit and rested her head on lunnas. lunna smiled and rested her head on anna's.
they finnally got to the school and anna got up, groaning about school already, they got up and walked off. anna walked to lunnas first period class and lunna set down her stuff and walked with anna to her locker. ' wow, your locker is really up here? no wonder i get on first. ' anna chuckled. ' yea. ' she wispered. and she saw the guys hanging around her locker as usual this morining. she walked a bit faster and stood in front of her locker. the guy she had hit yesterday was standing infront this time and was snickering at her. ' had a good beating yesterday. ' lunna looked at anna but she didnt look back at her. she just stared at him. ' what are you talking about? ' she asked. the guy bent down. ' little missy thought that she was tougher than me. so she hit me. but, of course....IM the man, i dont take that. i hit her back. ' lunna was shocked and didnt know what to say she just stood there watching anna. ' just, move please. i need to get to class as well as my friend here. ' the guy stood there. ' no. i dont wanna. ' anna got mad and clentched her fist but held herself back and asked again. ' please move. i need to get to class and my friend needs to too. ' ' aw, what's wrong. not gonna take a morning beating this morining. ' lunna saw anna getting really mad. she now understood why she hated mornings so much. ' hey, why dont you just let her at her locker. she's done nothing to you. ' the guy looked at her. ' really? well she hit me. ' ' well that was after you didnt move for her. im assuming that she asked you to more than a million times but you didnt. right? ' they guy stood there staring at her smirking. ' so, your her little defender here huh? ' anna got mad that lunna was brought up into it. she clenched her fist tighter and raied it. she grabed a hold of his shirt for a firm hold and swung at him. ' i dont give a damn if you pick a fight at me. but dont get her involved in your damn ' to tourcher' list. got that. ' she hit him one last time and shoved him away to the guys. she opened her locker grabed her stuff took off her coat quickly and shut her locker before he got up. she grabed lunna by the arm and dragged her away quickly running back downstaires. anna stoped at the bottom and tried to catch her breath. she also was tring to avoid catching lunnas eye. she knew she was watching her. anna knew that she should have never hit that guy infront of her. she walked lunna to her classroom and watched her go in. ' i'll leave once i get home.....' and anna left for her class as well.
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Post by Dia on Mar 12, 2007 19:36:54 GMT -5
lunna just stood where she was dazed at what she saw untill she heard the bell and quickly ran inside and sat down. meanwhile anna wasnt into going to class, she didnt want to face some more damned evil kids that teased others. it's like she never learns anything in there. all you hear are cries of laughter from the jocks, and nothing would be done to stop it. so anna just started to give up slowly but surely. she grabed her bag and headed around the school walking around aimlessly acting as if she was heading somewhere. she headed to the bathroom to wash off her hand that was slightly covered in blood from hitting the guy. as she walked back out of the restroom a little pack of guys were walking down, it made anna's stomich sink. she knew who it was, it was the jocks that's by her locker. as usually the leader, the strong one is in the middle. the one anna hit and he had a bandade on his nose to stop the bleeding from anna. it made her smile but she noticed they were comming at her. she gripped her bag firmly, ' so anna, wanna go for round two? ' he motioned his hands to the other two guys and they stood next to anna but hadnt grabed her yet. she knew this was her time to run, her time to get away but running away, she remembered, wasnt her style. anna wanted to be stronger, and this was her chance. everything she learned from her father was now put to the test, she was gonna face these bulllies. she dropped her book bag and the echo sounded in the hallway. ' i'm not gonna run if that's what you think i'll do. '
the leader nodded his head and the two started to come on to her trying to grab her but anna ducked and elboed one of them in the stomich making him fall out of breath. she spun around and kicked the other guy in the stomich also making him fall out of breath. anna looked at them then at the leader. ' so, what'll it be? ' the guy laughed. ' so, you've been holding back on us......humiliating us? ' she stood tall, ' think what you'd like. but im not gonna stand around getting beaten up the rest of my life either. i wont give up, i wont give in. ' the guy got mad and charged at her anna dodged it with ease. he kept running at her and she just kept moving away finnally getting bored with it the guy charged at her again and she stood there just as he was getting closer she lifted her foot high up and his face ran right into it. he fell to the ground grabing his face and rolled around in pain. ' YOU-YOU BITCH! YOU-YOU FUCKING MESSED UP MY GORGEOUS FACE!!!! ' ' if only i could, but it was already messed up when you hit it. wasnt my doing. ' she walked by smiling and grabed her bag. she walked on and kicked him in the stomich making him groan. and she proceeded walking on around school smiling for finnally standing up to someone on her own and winning.
the bell finnally rang and she was relived her school had a court yard that was huge and was covenient to get around classes when it was open. she could hid in the big tree till school was over. so she headed to the court yard and started to walk as if she was going to her next class when it started to empty she snuck to the tree and started to climb the big trunk. she got up finnally and climbed to the very top. at the top you could see over the school building and see a beautiful terrain. ( that's one huge tree. XD ) she took off her book bag and got settled on a branch and layed down and watched the sky. before she knew it, she was fast asleep.
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Post by Dia on Mar 17, 2007 18:49:20 GMT -5
anna was fast asleep for the whole day but when she heard the final bell she woke with a jolt. she sat up in the tree and saw everyone leaving the school. As soon as the court yard was clear she climbed down and jumped the last few inches. she put her bag on her shoulders and started to walk to the front of the school for the buses. " HEY! ANNA!? " anna spun around and saw her other friend running to her. ' what's up Kay? ' ' nothin, just wondered where you've been all day. i havnt seen you at all....' anna shruged and contuied to walk as kay walked with her. ' around, mighta skipped some classes. ' she paused. ' i mean, some classes you just cant learn in them. too many dumb jocks. ' kay smiled and laughed, ' true. ' anna looked at him. ' hey? you gotta promise me that you wont be like them, alright? i mean, i know you play basketball and all....but please to become like one of those jerks. ' kay looked at her puzzled but smiled. ' its ok. i wont. trust me i like the way i am now. good student, good grades, good athlete, good friends, all is good. ' anna nodded. they walked in silence for a while then kay stopped and looked at her. ' h-hey, ' he paused for a while and anna looked at him confused. ' you alright? ' ' y-yea. i have a question ' ' ok, shoot. ' kay looked at the ground and swallowed hard. ' are-are you doin anything tonight? ' anna froze. she coulnt believe what she was hearing, then she remembered, she dosnt have a home. anna cant do anything untill she can find a place to live. for the moment of her life right now, even tho someone was asking her out on a date, she was alone. she looked at the gound. ' i-im sorry. not tonight. im kind of in a situation....and....' she paused and turned away. ' i can't do it tonight. im so sorry. ' and anna ran away. kay stood there confused and a little dissapointed but started to get really worried so he started to run for her but she had a head start she got away. he stopped runnning tried to catch his breath.
anna kept running. ' god damnit! and even now i still run! why damnit?! WHY?! ' she stopped runnning alittle bit when she saw the buses and saw lunna but lunna didnt see her she was laughing with the other two friends on the bus. anna droped her head and started to walk to lunnas home to grab her things, but anna didnt notice that lunna saw her and was trying to call out to her but anna didnt hear. all she could hear now is the wind. she was running hard and fast and felt the cold air in her face and hear the wind rushing in her ears. ' why am i so lost? ' she would repeat in her head and she would run harder and fast each time it would come up.
with the pace she was running before the buses moved and not slowing down she knew she was going to get there before lunna was and she would grab her things and leave. she didnt want to hurt anyone now. she hated that feeling. as soon as she turned on lunnas street she heard the bus comming by and comming to a stop. ' crap, wasnt quick enought. ' anna came to brisk walk now. she knew lunna was gonna come running any mintue now. 'ANNA! HEY ANNA! ' and there it was. anna walked slower and lunna caught up. ' hey, why didnt you ride the bus? what's wrong? ' anna shruged. ' i dunno. i guess i needed the run. ' she started to walk again. 'i'll get my things and be on my way then. ' lunna grabed anna's shoulder. ' why? ' ' thought you'd want me out of the way. scared the crap outta you....the least i can do is leave. ' lunna shook her head fierclly. ' no no no no no no! i dont want you to go. please stay? ' anna stopped walking and froze. ' why did she want me to stay. i HURT someone right infront of her. ' she thought. ' anna, i wasnt afraid i was shocked, but not afraid. please, dont leave on my account. ' anna turned around while looking on the ground. ' al-alright. ' and she hugged lunna and they walked home together.
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